Sunday, August 26, 2018

Cyanotic Spell

It was just another typical tantrum of Bowen...but it was not. After fighting with Bowen to get him in his car seat after we went to The Ridge. He was not wanting to go back in his chair after going on the slide and the nearby playground. We finally managed to get him in and he was not taking it. Thrusting, arching, screaming, kicking we get him in. He took a deep breath and exhaled... and exhaled...and exhaled some more. He went from crying with loud screams to a cry that was silent. Scary silence as his face turned from red in anger to blue in hypoxia then an ash pale. His body was jerking violently and eyes rolling back of his head. Now I know what Aubrey had been talking about. When we were in Africa she said that Bowen had passed out and they had 911 dialed in their phone. He came back to it. All because Marcus had come home and Bowen was afraid he would take him away from Aubrey. As Bowen's eyes turned I ran back grabbed him from the car seat, and in the meantime happened to grab him violently and hit his head on the car frame leaving a big goose egg. I put three large blows in his mouth and face hoping the reflex would have him come back. It didn't.... I kept yelling Bowen Bowen. And his body went limp. Arms dangled. I can only imagine the feeling of a little boy drowning, I can not imagine how hard it would be to witness. Bowen came back a couple seconds later and pointed at the car. He then layed his head on my shoulder and started to whimper. Ah my heart, being a nurse I should have been more in a relaxed state of mind. Witnessing your own child something like this is my worst nightmare. My legs were like jello and I could only hold him and thankfully he came to. My mom on the other hand, was perfectly calm. She knew he would come to. Its called a Cyanotic Spell, I later learned. Sometimes when kids get very angry, frustrated, scared, or hurt they will hold there breath and then pass out. It can help to blow in their face but it doesn't work with every child. It scares me to death. Bowen has had episodes like this before but never passing out. It outgrows sometimes not until they are 5 or 6! I hope he is the exception but like the face blowing working probably not.
Chris is officially in our new place in Billings. He is really liking the crowd thing and loves the view from the Rim Rocks. He says the last person who worked there left him with a mess of patients but that's where Chris will learn. We are missing him especially Bowen but really he misses Moana a little more. The other morning he surprised me from his usual first word of the morning "baba", to "moana". uh. I thought, had he been dreaming of Moana?
One of my favorite things when I put Bowen down at night is sowng? He loves when I sing to him and gestures me to sit down in the chair. He is so sweet, when I stop singing he looks up from sucking his thumb, sowng? How can I resist?
Bowen especially likes to tell me he has owies. He points at his knees owies. His head.. owies.. arm.. owies. Mostly because he falls a lot. I had a big zit on my cheek and he pointed at my face owie? Yes, bowen thank you for pointing it out.
We had fun this week going to the planetarium with Ashley and being able to see them for at least a little bit before Bowen would run off to the next thing. We also went to the planetarium in SLC with Blake and his girlfriend. Oh young love, pretty soon they will be doing taxes and finding moving expenses and the best nanny for their child. Growing up comes with lots of responsibility. But also a lot of freedom too.
Chris has found a great doggie day care for Maggie while he has been at work. They even cut her ears which he says they don't normally do. He also found a great lunch place by his work and a gym close to our house which he has been taking advantage of with no kids and no wife. He even played video games until 1:30 in the morning with a guy he met from church. Oh the bachelor life. Just wait, we will rock your world yet again Chris.

Have a great week and we will too,

Love, Cameryn

Sunday, August 19, 2018

Mas Mas Mas

It has been two weeks since Chris has left for Billings MT. I feel like we were able to be a part before we had kids for this long but now with Bowen I am just exhausted! With being out of school and chasing this kid down leaves me so tired. I swear I am more tired with him then doing clinicals 9 hours a day.
Chris has said these things about Billings: there is a new breed here Cam it will be an eye opener, the first thing someone said to me here is do you hunt? There is one thing I noticed is that they run out of your favorite things, there is a line out the door for Shopko who shops there and what is it?
This will be a change but it seems like Chris has already met some fun friends there. He has gone boating, mountain biking, hiking, movies, dinner, got a new gym pass. He is living the bachelor life up. The first week he worked he was so sick. I felt bad because he had this chronic cough that made me a little weary especially since it was his first week and making a good impression is important. He did of course cracking jokes and his coworkers asking what is something we don't know about you? He responds, I like pineapple on my pizza.
As for Bowen and I, we definitely have not been bored. We play with friends and family all day everyday. Bowen loves his uncles so much and its going to be hard switching to no family once again. We will meet friends who are like family. He knows almost everyone's names from pictures. He asks about Aubrey and Brinley and sometimes Marcus.
We went to Chik fil e this week and brought it over to Ali my cousins house. Bowen had his first chicken nugget. He took a bite it was kind of good and then took another bite. Then of course he chucks it to Murphy there dog. Oh Bowen eating is just a game. He hasn't been the best eater. I will go through the effort of trying to make him a somewhat nutritious meal with well rounded foods. Then I result to cereal because he hasn't eaten anything all day. Except milk. Milk is his favorite.
Bowen is such a talker. He babbles and really does not shut up. Not that it is a bad thing but he will repeat things over and over. Mas mas mas mas mas mas mas mas mas. Baba baba baba baba baba baba baba baba baba baba. Wawawawawawawwa. I am going to go crazy. We facetime Chris all the time and sometimes at work. Someone walked into his office 8:30am as Bowen and I had an early start. He was playing with us and then said oh sorry just playing with my family. I was thinking oh gosh these are just great impressions. But Bowen misses his Daddy.
Everytime the door bell rings. Emmy? Emmy? Bowen loves his nanny Emily. She is such a sweetheart I can't ask anyone for someone better than her. She loves him and he is just in a hypnosis with her. It helps that she is cute and will do anything he wants such as throw rocks in the pond, go to the park, give him bunnies or bunny crackers, go jump. He is in heaven. Hopefully I can find someone as great as Emily. It has been nice not having to worry about him with her. And she knows him so well, I just worry he wont like anyone else!
Bowen and I have been to Alpine Days, looking at the Aviary with the birds and picking blackberries, we also went to the zoo this week with the whole family. Bowen has been busy busy busy.
As for me it has been great not having to do school. Although I feel a little guilty not doing anything it is a necessity for me just to relax for a bit. I have been obsessed with the Ted Bundy audiobook about 19 hours. I just finished it and have to say can't wait for the movie. I also have been picking up my piano again since the movers forgot it. I love it so much I think why do I stop I just need someone to take my crying baby and let me practice haha. I also have been running with Bowen and man he is getting heavy not sure how far we go but at the end I am dying. Pushing the Bob stroller and his 30 lb body with diapers and wipes, I am done for the day!

Sunday, December 10, 2017

Christmas Time in Utah

Bowen will be 11 months week. I can't believe how much he has grown. Some of the things Bowen can do now is climb up and down the stairs. He says Mama, Dadda, Kitty Kitty, Star, and almost book. He loves the library and story time. He loves little kids, well people in general. He has so much personality. He is feisty and clenches his fist in balls. He is sweet when he is sleepy and is the only time he cuddles with you. He loves going to places and sitting in the cart watching people. He loves music and stops in his tracks when he hears the guitar. We went and saw Santa and Bowen was a little unsure about it. Santa pulled the moves on mom though, I saw Santa kissing mommy on the cheek....
Bowen has our hearts. I would do anything for that little boy. He loves the kitty and plays spatula and hit the kitty. He likes "Volcano" with his dad. Where Chris throws him in the air and then catches him and puts him on a pile of pillows on top of the bean bag. Bowen thinks this is the greatest thing. He is such a good eater, and wouldn't have guessed it but likes lemons?
This month we went to Temple Square and saw all the lights. I have been studying for finals so he has gotten some time with Grandma JoJo and Emily and Dad. I am finally finishing up my semester with only one more final for the rest of the school year.. at least that's what my mentor said. I am also finishing up my clinicals. It has taken a while but 150 hours is completed!

Bowen is just getting over his cold which lasted over two weeks. This last week he had a temp of 104 and he was miserable. Right before my final of course. Two days later I noticed a rash. Roseola! Yes! I dx my son, what of it!!!

We are headed to Montana next week to check out a potential job opportunity. Perhaps we will be the Montana Smith's?

Much love,

Cameryn



Temple Square 2017

Visiting Santa                                       Bowen with Roseola :(


Not liking Santa...



Bowen Selfie!!!


Sunday, November 26, 2017

Thanksgiving 2017


Thanksgiving was a little different this year. It included Bowen! It was so fun to watch him eat his first turkey, mash potatoes, and green beans. Man, he ate it up! This boy knows how to eat. It was a small group this year with the Smith Family. Justin's, Stacey, Karen, Brian, and Chris and I and only three of the grandchildren. We went up to The Provo Smith family for Thanksgiving dinner. It really was incredible! Stacey did a great job on the turkey and did it all herself. Bravo! I have done it once before for friends in Omaha and the task is not easy. Taking out the gizzard and defrosting it and marinating and pasting and stuffing. The left overs are what make it special though!

Bowen got to play with all his cousins toys. He especially loves the stairs. He climbs up and looks back at me and giggles then keeps going. He now comes up to me crawling and pulls on my pants and then stands and says mama mama mama. He loves the dog's waterbowl and plays in the water when i'm not looking. He feeds the dogs his leftovers and even has gotten daring with Duke letting him eat it out of his hands. He likes to take Chris's socks out of the drawer and fling it until there are no more socks in the drawer. He goes over to the piano books in the basket and flings them as well. He likes to go into his book basket and get all his books out. He eats leaves and gets them stuck on the roof of his mouth and I have no idea what he is eating until finally its night and I can see the leaf.
Thinks the dogs are called BAAAA well really any animal. He likes to bite the table with his teeth, and scrape the varnish off with his teeth. He says dada dada. But what's really impressive is his FAVORITE word KITTY KITTY. He loves that cat. Every time we walk or he his playing on the ground and the cat comes he has to grit his teeth and kiiiittty.
He is not a coddler and when he gets frustrated he makes his fists and grunts. He knows how yell and use his lungs. He has the cutest six teeth with a big gap in the front. He loves music and singing and loves kids! He likes to watch football with his dad. He loves his dad but really loves his mom more ;). He likes to play hide and seek. He likes a new game called kick it with a balloon and he stands and kicks the balloon. He does not like to sit and stay still he is always on the move!

He loves his bath time and likes to splash in the bath and get his parents soaked. It takes a team to raise this kid but we would not want him any other way!

Chris was on call this weekend. We had a little dilemma, we were switching over services from AT&T to Verizon. We had to get new phones and figure out how the residents were going to call Chris. We made it work but it took a good day and a half and a couple trips to the Verizon store to get everything sorted out.

It was a gorgeous weekend. Chris and I took the dogs for a hike and hung out at home with a sick Bowen... who now I think got me sick :(. Here is to a hard week ahead getting ready for finals, clinicals, on call, and job interviews for Chris!

A few photos from Thanksgiving and this weekend!
















Sunday, August 20, 2017

Summer Comes to an End

This is the last week before my clinicals and school start. I didn't know how much work it would be to try and find clinical preceptors. I guess since I am in Utah I have to make up several contracts with all these different facilities because Creighton doesn't have contracts with them and it has to be official. So makes it a lot harder on my end to have a preceptor who is good at teaching willing to teach me and let me do things. I didn't know how hard it would be!

We had some fun this week and did a little shopping up in Sugar House, we went to the Sundance Outlet and Patagonia Outlet and had lunch at Whole Foods. Bowen likes shopping... Sorry Chris. He loves to put out his hands and feel the clothes and look at himself in the mirror while I try on things. He is my little shopping buddy.

We met up with one of my high school friends and went to the splash pad one day and then the library. Later that night we ate dinner with the Dodds family who was Chris's chief in STL. They have 5 adorable kids and he is a comprehensive Ophthalmologist in SLC. He gave Chris some good advice I think when it comes to the job search. Chris has lots of interviews coming up: Oregon, California, Bountiful, St. George, and a few others. They made Fondue Pizza? It was actually really good... I want to start a new tradition with my family and eat Fondue Pizza every Friday. I think Chris would be okay with that considering we had Papa Johns for dinner Tuesday and he had it for lunch too.

We went on a beautiful hike called Cove in PG at 6am and saw the sunrise. I am sore today! I miss hiking in Utah. STL hiking is like a little walk around the block. I am so thankful to be around mountains. There is something about them that brings peace. Chris and I played a little tennis where he did indeed beat me...only because I kept double faulting and hitting the ball into the net! My errors made me so frustrated! I need to step up my game. I actually played twice this week one with my neighbor where she plays probably 5 hours a day. She could probably play in college. Later we went on a lunch date with Chris and Bowen. We went to one of our favorite places up at Suncrest. They had the doors open to the restaurant and you could feel the breeze coming in with the fall air starting. I can't believe it is almost fall. Bowen had his first sweet potato fry and devoured it!!! Man this kid is going to be fat... Chris says. We then went to Thanksgiving Point where I showed Chris the Curiosity Museum. Bowen loves it! He got a little scared in the music room but loved hitting the piano and watching the bubbles and colors show up when you hit a note. He also loves the Water Works where each time we go he is completely soaked. Luckily I remembered to bring an extra outfit. Chris still doesn't get my obsession with Swig but I made him go there after.

Thursday, Ashley had extra tickets to go to the MTC. We weren't able to go Wednesday so we went Thursday with Blake and his friend my mom and dad Chris and Bowen. It was cool to see inside it and know how it looks. The new buildings are amazing. I asked one of the elders if he had to take classes in the old building or the new building and he said the old building. I then asked him if he resented those who got to study in the new classrooms with the floor to ceiling windows bringing in natural light and warm colors that are painted on the wall. He laughed and said no not really I can study in that building anyways. Hey if I was a missionary studying for 7-12 hours in one room I would do everything I can to have my classroom in the new building! We took some pictures at the MTC with the background lit pictures of Jesus in Jerusalem that glowed. It was gorgeous. My favorite experience at the MTC was seeing Chris's face as we walked into the cafeteria. He just got this sick look. I also loved how Blake was able to see the MTC and maybe make him realize a mission is in the close future!!! So crazy. Next year Tanner will be coming home and Blake will be leaving. Missions are hard especially for mom's! As I held Bowen in my little Lilly standing next to the big map sign I just can't imagine what it feels like to send your son for two years to anywhere in the world! There has to be tremendous faith in that. We then went to one of my favorite Mexican restaurants called El Gallo Giro. Probably the best fajitas I have ever had... I know a superlative but it is that good.

Well a start of a new week and the Solar Eclipse!! Hope you all get a chance to see it!

Love
Cameryn





Sunday, July 30, 2017

Rock that SKUNK!

Last night we went to an amazing performance by Ben Fold's and Utah Symphony Orchestra. We didn't get there until intermission, because of Cafe Rio...Everyone had the same idea as us I guess. We called all the way up the canyon but no answer. I put a order in online thinking it would be faster. Some of our other family members got to Cafe Rio earlier and said the same thing, the phone lines were off the hook and the same punch spill right by the cash register was still there. Mad house. We waited 40 mins for our food, it would have just been faster to wait inline. We finally made it to the concert where there was no parking. We parked about a mile down the road and hitch hiked to the concert. Some guy was kind enough to stop and let us catch a ride with him. He was fed up looking for parking too and after dropping off his family he decided he didn't care where he parked and parked right in front of the concert and made a spot for himself. Smart. On a side note Cafe Rio was delicious. But I felt bad for B. Fold's because as we passed the stage during intermission it smelt like poopy diapers. Gross.
I liked how he had the whole audience involved and the whole audience sang some acapella for him and he conducted, I remember him doing this last time. I wish he came to Deer Valley every year! ROCK that B*$%#. That is the term I guess where someone yells out during his concerts and he has to make up a song on the spot.

Brittney's wedding shower was yesterday. Kathy and Julie did a great job of organizing it and the quiches were amazing. Brittney and Jace are moving into a house in Provo. Countdown to the wedding is a week! It is almost here crazy!

I let Maggie out this week around 1130pm to go to the bathroom and she found a little critter friend who sprayed her. She ran in the house and immediately  I smelt it. She got sprayed. We made a late night trip to Walmart to get hydrogen peroxide, and baking soda and dishwash soap. Man it was awful, I had clinical the next morning too; oh the surprises we will get this year. Hopefully the skunk doesn't come out during the wedding.

Bowen has been doing this screech thing when he gets excited. It pierces your ears! He is so fun and definitely lets you know when he is tired or hungry. He still likes breast milk the most though...

I finally finished my huge paper for this class, I am so happy it is done. I get a little break to middle of August where I can just chill and relax. Thank goodness, I need it.

We are running a half marathon in two weeks in British Columbia Vancouver for LuLulemon. I am so excited! I love lululemon. I probably could wear it all the time which a lot of times I do.

We went to the splash pool this week, met up with one of my college roommates from BYU and got to play soccer! I scored a P.K. I liked how the guy tried to give me a pep talk to kick it as hard as I could at the goalie and then they will all come in and help. Why couldn't I just score and avoid that whole process? Idk. Also Chris and I went to go see Spider Man which was so good! We got Cubbies after too. It was overall a great week:).

Love,

Cameryn

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Movin' movin' movin'

Well it's been a while since I have written. A LOT has happened but let's just bullet point it to get to the gist of it.

  • Finished my 38 page paper
  • Chris graduated residency
  • Bowen is 6 months 27 inches height and 17.9 lbs
  • We packed, cleaned, and moved from Saint Louis to Utah
  • I finished finals
  • Chris started his fellowship at the Moran Eye Center-- already has had two open globes
  • I started my clinicals
  • We moved into my parents house for a year in the apartment 
  • Jace and Brittface are getting married in less than a month
  • Bowen is still teething...

Hm I'm sure there is lots more but it's late and I can't think. We celebrated Chris and Blakes birthday bash this weekend. I planned a fun little birthday for his whole family to celebrate in SLC. We haven't been able to be with his family during Chris's birthday so it was fun to have everyone there and celebrate. We had some good tri-tip sandwiches and played wiffle ball with all the kids and parents at the church. We had some oreo or cookies and cream cake and Chris got his Air Pods (two thumbs up review from Chris) which means he really likes them. And I got him a slackline-- okay well I got both of us a slack line. I also got him pizza coasters.. so awesome. 

We celebrated Chris and Blake's  birthday on today and had some burgers and dirt cake. Blake and Chris got shoes, shirts and other necessities that boys don't like buying. Then we did a little slack line and double cartwheels... well tried to at least. It was a good birthday and we are celebrating it with more fun by going to Lake Powell this next week. :)

Love Cam

Swimming and hiking at Timpanogoes Cave and in the Call's pool

Chris's Birthday and Bowe's bow
Chris and Blake attempting a double cartwheel
4th of July hike and Park City dinner at the Country Club